what i think is best is

never fall in love again EVER.

it'll just hurt you and yourself.
but thats the fun part of love itself you take risks that no one has ever done before in there life time
yeah and those who didnt ave the balls died early or probably there son was gay.

anyway
i learned that loving someone who doesnt love you back is hard
and you will never understand how it works or what
im not hating or what i just feel like i dont get what i deserve.
its been months after now i have no emotional feelings or motivations for myself.
the only thing that's motivating me is blogging and studying.
weird that studying motivates well in a simple reason i just happen learn fast and observe more, and i much more curious in person.

anyway i just hope i could get over this feeling soon i dont want it to be a hinderance to myself and my studies. :D

seeing the world as a

small complex variety of creatures with the same basic structures and aspects of life by simply following the rule of nature in its own way.

and yeah im not being anti christ here or what but thats my general view of life itself.
well even though m catholic i've realized alot of things through observation. its really a hard one really.
though it may seems simple yet sooo emotionally vast and pure to the eyes of others.

in simple terms life itself is complex and mysterious behind its simplicity in reality.

well recently i just finished reading the grand design by steven hawking. though the book itself is
awesome for me and made me understand how everything happens. its like i entered a whole new world of creatures like as if its gonna be a wild ride for me.

and i hope that in the coming future i could post more blogs.. cuz recently my exams are really coming up and its kinda hard to think i wont be REALLY blogging for a while now.... this sucks ..

but ill try to make time to post blogs during or before my exams. im doing not just for viewers but for myself and my enjoyment of doing so. :D

i've been doing well as of now

but not really. i've been depressed for no reason at all. 

this feeling sucks and i really cant help it. its like i dont even know my self anymore.

but i hope this feeling would just go away.

ugh..

im beat.goodnight -_-

little dash of sadness

its been a stressful week and yeah my exams are coming up this month means I have to study for my vacation and spend vacation time blogging and watching anime 24/7 like a BOSS.

to think that i would make it this far. blogging and yeah i need more people to read this blog of mine but its okay. seems like its gonna be a long way for me to get to the top. :) well better keep doing my best then.


well this is all for now then ciao

kutsu

kutsu yep got an account on flavors.me lol and i like it but this will be soon my bio page or temporary bio data etc so

thats gonna be it just a small update lol.

im gonna be a little busy for a while.

well yeah for a while though but i'll try to keep on posting,
since its been a tough week for me and studies is getting on my nerves again.

i need a new motivation. something to make me move to my best.
well i might not how my first relationship failed though. hahahah
sorry suckers. its not because i dont want to but im just busy for now.

hahahah anyways ciao~ :3

it seems that

its almost gonna be december.

yep season where all the flashy lights and people go buy stuff 

for there loved ones.

and as for me i expect that this christmas ill be spending it alone or probably just blogging here.

yeah i really have a sad life but hey atleast im still alive.

because the only thing thats keeping me alive is the urge of looking for a reason to live.

its like im a walking dude without a beating heart.

well, i am grateful about my life now.  

hmmmm maybe on my next post i should blog about how i failed at my first relationship?

hahaha maybe next time. 

well this is all for now. 

thanks for reading this blog :D

my country

and yeah its quite a bit polluted but at least i live somewhere far from that.

i live at the philippines and yeah its been a easy life for me. but im expecting that it wont last long.
i believe sooner or later ill be experiencing rough times.

but hey thats part of life. nothing i could do can change it. lol.

anyways i might not post here for a few days. cause ive been creating this other blog that i want to do.
so yeah see you all people. :D

my dreams and goals

today imma post about my dreams and goals
first off my dreams is becoming a well known guy in the name of blogging anime.
yeah im a otaku got a problem?
i love anime but i havent bought any posters and dolls or such
i just simply watch it through some streaming site.

i started to like anime when i was ten. started off with dragon ball z

then after that u jumped off to different genres' of anime itself.
through my way to anime i already had this dream of going to japan
cuz dad doesnt want me to go there for some reason.

and now im at college i plan to save lots of money, learn japanese (read, write and talk)
and do everything possible to get there.

yeah last of my dreams is getting a really awesome life to tell my future grandkids lol
cuz the future would be like a place where social networking is just a norm in our society.


soo yeah next up is my goals.

1st of my goals as of now is graduate as early as possible.
currently doing all my best at college and yeah keeping this schedule of blogging and yet being able to do
some music productions and planning on another blog lol xD
and most of all study.

and 2nd must get things organized cuz im kind of a messy guy.
though i am a neat freak everything is clean but not organized. lol.
you dont get it huh? well its like mixing oil and water. silly.


lol soo yeah im a regular doing regular things. nothing special. really.
i just so happened to have many many interest. and managing it all at the same time.
i think in the future i might have a little trouble posting here much soo yeah ill
be expecting you reading this and i would appreciate every one bit of second you spend here.
:D

its seems like

I've been missing alot of action lately (probably because im in college)
and yeah life is hard
yet everything you try to do just so happens fail
i've been wondering why do i get so quiet at random times.
hmmmm this is becoming more like a personal blog instead of a
random all you know it shit blog. :))

well this blog will be my personal blog for now.
or until i graduate and start earning money

well my next post would be all about my dreams and goals in life. :D

a really early christmas for me

it feels so good to be inspired.
yes it is.
but ill never know what comes next.
i just hope she notices i like her alot.
or maybe i should let my feelings
fade away?

i dunno im confused between love and infatuation.

boku wa tomodachi ga sukunai review~!

soooooo yeah i think im gonna post on every monday is anime~!

and today i review about boku wa tomodachi ga sukunai

yes its a long anime title but its really fun to watch :D
from which the title means "i dont have many friends"

even though i just watched there intro
and PV episode i really enjoyed it alot.

as i continued to watch each episode
the main characcter "kodaka hasegawa" caught this girl (yozora mikazuki) talking to her
imaginary friend called tomo-chan
i slowly see how much they do everything just so
to know how to make friends.
yozora even made a club just for the sake of it. and yeah i wont be spoiling much
all i could say is
it has a really good plot and story line plus its a bit ecchi! :3
dont blame me. they just see it as entertainment.

sooo here is a sneak peek of its PV episode of boku wa tomodachi ga sukunai! :D
hope you enjoy it!

why u people no understand?!

YES! 

for today ill be ranting about these

yes this are obviously salmon eggs.

and im quite concern about these.

yeah, yeah they said it tastes great (haven't tried one myself lol)

but there has been recent problems about these eggs.

yeah alot people are consuming too much and there's been

a little problem about the population of salmon.

it concerns me cuz im a bit of a environmentalist.

well i just wish that day would come

when the government would have policies against this.

well off to next point of these is that

i think a bit too compassionate at things like this.

well anyway as i said early in my other post

i have no idea yet what kind of things i should be posting and 

still i dont still feel like posting stuff about these. 

but there's just something inside of you that wants to come out and make a change 

or whatever.

ciao~

maybe i do..

i should a photo walk by sometime.
well... i'll just make it random sooo
probably by next week ill start posting pictures that i see here..
hehe

saturday

its currently 12 midnight at my place so lol.
in my usual routine i always go to

since it happened to be the first thing i always do on the computer.

i started to wonder why people go to facebook?

is it really an addiction?

i cant tell it to myself at the moment.

then i was curious about mark zuckerberg

on how he got famous because of facebook.

then i suddenly thought why not start an idea for a social network?

but after thinking about it i gave up. 

the social network today are so big, newbies like me will just disperse and die 

from the start. competing against the bigger monsters.

so i started to think small like making an app for iphone.

since im so curious about it. i thought i should add this up to my future 

doings during summer and try to actually sell one or give one for free.

see what happens in the future when i do this! 

ciao oyasumi nasai~ :3 dear readers!

Up Till now...

Im Still having a bit trouble on what to post here so lol maybe i should start at how my usual life goes or better yet tell to the world my opinion on what i think about this and that? 

sounds plausible.

ill start off with....

thinking what to do. and what to post here in this blog.
so yeah this wont be famous or anything. (but i really hope so :3 )
i think i should probably focus more on my interests.

so ill be posting here at random times i guess.
so lol i hope i would get to know more alot on what to do in this blog here.
so ciao~ :D

ps. i like cats lol but more animal like.